A Long time away

It has been a while...I have not written in this blog in so many months...I have been avoiding it, pushing it away like something I didn't want to look at...scared to write my thoughts and lessons...

This blog has always been about my relationship with the Lord and what He has been teaching me about Abundant Life...the problem is that I feel like my life has been anything but abundant...I find myself here at the end of September looking at my life and thinking that it is almost unrecognizable. Nothing I would have planned, Nothing I would have chosen, Nothing I would have dreamed, Nothing close to abundant

But in the quietness of this moment...tonight...in my newly remodeled house and the kids all sound asleep in their beds...I know and believe that God knows...He has always known...all the things that have happened have passed through His hand first. I don't pretend to know why...I don't pretend that it makes it any easier...

Through these difficult moments, this is the time when our faith becomes reality...not just a feeling or a teaching or a belief...but a way of life.

Life...it's a gift...the good, bad and ugly...all a gift, designed for us by the ultimate giver...

I don't know about you, but days like today i wish I could return parts of the gift...things I don't want or I don't think I need...but that is not how it works. God is using all the pieces of our lives to work together for the good...but it is hard and tough at times...

And for me these past few months...they have been tough...and I am still in the middle of the tough times, but I am slowly walking through it...

trusting and waiting...

waiting for you alone, O Lord...not even for the light to show the step ahead...but for you alone...I wait...